2023 | Netherlands, Belgium | Documentary

I Want To Go Higher

  • English, Dutch English 23 mins
  • Director | Amanda Van Hesteren
  • Writer | Amanda Van Hesteren
  • Producer | Amanda van Hesteren, Sky Verbeek

STATUS: Released

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In this vibrant, raw and unabashedly intimate coming-of-age film, four male models make a sincere attempt to get to know themselves better during a retreat in Thailand. While the most sensitive boy, Arjan, actively talks about the patterns he wants to break and spends a lot of time in bed, the most dominant boy in the group, Jamal, likes to be the center of attention. Among themselves, the boys behave over the top; riding naked on a scooter, renting exaggerated villas and doing photo shoots for Instagram while you keep feeling something chafe inside. In private conversations with filmmaker Amanda van Hesteren, we learn more about their individual insecurities as the boys' vulnerabilities unfold in different ways.

Documentary Coming-of-Age Male Models Thailand Retreat Vulnerability Instagram Self-Discovery Masculinity Personal Growth Short Film Intimacy Raw Social Media Identity​