Bad trip is a very unpleasant experience induced by psychedelics that often resembles being in hell. The outcome is not necessarily traumatic. Integrating the event may have a positive psychological impact of getting closer to the essence of being. The respondent tells her story about a rough bad trip experienced at the Bufo Alvarius ceremony that brings up a question whether the journey to an imaginary heaven, inner peace and self-acceptance may lead through the very hell she went through.