The film is shaped as a diary of the author's memories, telling about the problematic relationship between father and daughter caused by the father's mental illness, and the troubles caused by this condition during the author's growth.  The need of the author to free herself from the influence of the past and to break the shell of silence around this painful situation brings her back to Belarus, to shoot interviews with various family members and collect also their memories and points of view. The author takes responsibility for her emotions and concludes that she needs to free herself from the influence of the past, associated with Papa's disease, and finally build her independent self-portrait. This gives her a chance to revive and to finally show the sincere feelings of the adult daughter to her Papa.