Laurie was inspired by Laurie Weeks’ uncanny ability to simultaneously embody her characters and write them from a clear distance. The text in question is just a few paragraphs from a draft of the novel Zipper Mouth, more than ten years in the making, and published by the Feminist Press. The character is Weeks the addict, but the substance of her continual addiction is not the heroin of the story, but the real junk of a life of refusal — refusal to be a girl and not relinquish a girls true insight and desires; refusal to participate in our corrupted cultural heritage yet be a witness, an embedded journalist, a chronicler of a more authentic culture. The video is a bit romantic, a portrait of a character more than of the author herself. As Laurie does in her writing, I conflate the persona of the writer with that of her characters, creating a portrait that is both real and fantasy, and creating a fantasy that is, at its roots, a true story.